I prayed for days like this…
I had just purchased brand new dinner wear from Facebook Marketplace. Thrilled, I made a post to all my socials. That particular piece retailed for $59.99, and it was mine for only $10. Gently used, the advertising boosted. No cracks, bumps or bruises, it had only been used once. I brought it home to be washed and cleaned. Placing it on my kitchen counter, it matched my decor perfectly, as if it held a spot right there all along.
One morning last week I woke up to my new dinner piece filled with chemistry items. From test tubes, droppers, citric acid bottles, measuring cups, chemicals, measuring spoons, baking soda, and stirring rods. I froze, everything in me wanted to scream at the top of my lungs and yell at him to get his stuff out of my kitchen. But this time, I didn’t. Something came over me and I found myself having a seat at my bar.
I looked around my house. I saw all his gadgets, goggles, and remnants of his successful volcano experiments. On the counter he had left me a note. “Thank you, mommy, for letting me use your baking soda. Sorry I used it all, let’s go to the store and buy you some more. Love Jeremiah.” Tears filled my eyes. Here I was, about to ruin a perfect moment. Then it dawned on me, I prayed for days like this.
You see, Jeremiah was a twin. A beautiful reminder that God is still in the blessing business. I lost his sibling, still in the womb at just 10 weeks pregnant. Drs told me that he wouldn’t make it. Anyone who knows me knows; I wanted a football team of children; but God gave me him. All i could do in that moment was thank God that I was so blessed that my kitchen was a mess. Everything doesn’t have to be perfect, and my home should look and feel like home. Yes, cleaning will get done. Messes will be picked up and rooms will eventually be tidy again. But oh, how blessed am I to even be a mother at all. These are what I call teachable moments with lessons attached. I say all that to say this… Remember what you prayed for and be thankful in the waiting period. Don’t blink too fast. They grow up overnight.
Love Toya~
